3 Spiritual Tools that Helped me Through a Tough Season in my Life
I believe we have different seasons in our lives.
Some seasons feel like flow where everything seems to move along with ease while others feel like you are being drawn into the underworld to face the deepest, darkest parts of yourself.
Recently I was in a season that felt like walking through the valley of death.
It was in the dark of winter, the day before New Years Eve 2023 that my husband, son and I moved in with my in-laws. Some bad business decisions on my part, partnered with my husband losing his job, left us unable to pay our rent, utilities and basic needs. The immense failure I felt standing in my inlaws kitchen that first night was almost unbearable. Tears streaming down my cheeks as I both apologized to and thanked my mother-in-law.
Two weeks later we received a phone call from the storage company where we had placed our furniture that there was a puddle of water outside our unit. We headed down to the facility and when we opened the door to our unit there wasn’t just one leak raining water over our belongings, there were two. We stood there frozen watching the water flowing over our stuff. We lost all our furniture that day.
I remember walking into my in-laws after seeing the water damage in our storage locker and thinking, “this has got to be rock bottom. I have nothing left to lose”. No home, no physical belongings, no space to call our own.
As tough as this moment was, it was the beginning of a beautiful transformation. I had lived life up until this moment believing that my worth was tied to what I had on the outside. Where I lived, what I wore, how much money I had in my bank account. My life was built on superficiality and vanity (two of my gene key shadows) and during my eclipse nodal opposition, when the north node was crashing through my natal south node, I had some big lessons to learn.
I’ve always believed that these moments offer us a choice. To become a victim to our circumstances or to seek to find the lesson of where we are.
Through this experience I learned unconditional love. Witnessing my husband struggle through the loss of his job and living with his parents I felt a deep love for what he was going through. In the absense of material possessions I learned what true abundance was. It was gratitude for my breath, my in-laws, my jobs, my clients, my grief.
My need for external validation shifted and I realized how wealthy I was. I had a wealth of support, a wealth of opportunities, and a wealth of love. This type of wealth was greater than any I had ever experienced before because it was eternal and I could never lose it.
Some of the supports I used I want to share with you. These tools gave me the mental strength I needed on the days when things were hard, and they offered guidance to navigate my inner healing. They were my lifeline during a tough year and if any one of them can support you, I’m grateful.
The first is Teledipity. A numerology app that sends free monthly updates letting you know what is happening in your life based on your birth numerology, the number of the year you are in and the numberology of the month. When I began reading these monthly updates, I felt as though everything I was experiencing was bigger than me. With each monthly update I saw my outer world reflected back to me with understanding and hope. The struggles I was experiencing weren’t just because of bad decisions I had made, but were part of a greater cycle I was meant to be experiencing.
I felt so understood through these monthly updates that I upgraded to receive weekly emails as well. Sitting down on Sunday nights to read my week ahead forecast became my church. Understanding the energies at play and how I could work with them giving me the motivation I needed to keep going. To continue moving forward and changing my stars.
The second is Gene Keys. I’m in love with Richard Rudd. Not in a I’m-going-to-leave-my-husband kind of way. In an I’m-so-glad-he-downloaded-this-system way. The whole premise of the Gene Keys is to offer you a path of contemplation through your shadows and into your light. They hold the energy of the I-ching, astrology, human design and other spiritual practices.
They are a map. A blueprint of who you are at a soul level. Through walking the path of your gene keys you understand what your purpose is in this lifetime, how to open your heart to love, and how to build prosperity in your life.
While I was walking, working out, or sitting outside; I would turn on one of my Gene Key audios and let Richard Rudd’s voice wash over me. These audio’s felt like initiations. Transmissions of light calling my light up. The more I learned about my shadows, the more I could see how the choices I had made had been based on those frequencies. I could forgive myself and allow a new reality to dawn. One where I fostered my gifts. The gifts I was born to express in the world.
The third is K-Love. If you had ever told me I would be listening to a Christian music station before last year I would have laughed in your face. A) because I didn’t identify as Christian… then, and B) because my relationship with God was more akin to a child being angry at their parent vs one of unconditional love.
My devotion to K-Love fell upon me as I was scrolling through my radio stations one morning at 5:30 am on my way to work and heard their slogan, “positive, encouraging K-Love” . With everything that was happening in my life, I wanted exactly that. Positive, encouraging messages to give me hope.
With each song that played I felt love fill my heart. Listening to songs about God, I realized I wasn’t alone and that God was walking through this darkness with me. Not only that, but if I surrendered my fears to Him I wouldn’t have to carry my responsibilities and burdens alone. That lifted my spirits and created a lightness I have never experienced before in my life.
To this day, I am hooked on K-Love. Every morning as I drive to the gym, the sun rising on the horizon, I sing my praise to the Lord and I don’t care who knows it.
Choosing faith over fear has been a game changer in how I show up for myself, my family, and my work.
The truth is, life got a hell of a lot easier when I realized I didn’t have to do it alone.
Teledipity gave me higher perspective. Letting me know that what I was experiencing was exactly what I was meant to be experiencing.
Gene Keys gave me insight. Through contemplation I was able to work through my shadows, forgive myself, and initiate the frequency of my light.
While K-Love opened my heart to love.
Each of these tools was instrumental in supporting me during one of the toughest seasons of my life, and even as I move into a new season, they still are. They may have begun in the dark, but we are all now dancing together in the light.
What about you?
Are there spiritual tools that you love? Do you feel called to check out any of these?
I believe magic happens when we realize we don’t have to do this thing called life alone and come together to share our resources.
I would love to know what has influenced you in your journey. Let me know in the comments below!